Gratitude Week 1&2

I stumbled across this a little late so I am going to combine the first two weeks posts. (: 

Week 1: Why Start This Challenge?

The last 6 or so months have been rough on me. I have had a lot of shit going on, trying to figure out myself, and how to focus on me more. So doing a gratitude challenge will hopefully bring my spirits up and allow me to bring out my happiness that is hiding inside somewhere. LOL.

Week 2: Spouse/Significant Other
Wow, where do I start. The last 11 years have been trying and we’ve had our ups and downs. When I first met my now husband I was fresh out of an abusive relationship and I was both scared and hesitant to jump into another relationship but I have what most would call “daddy issues” and I don’t like being single especially since I am not close with my mom either, so having someone who’s focused on just me is what I needed at the time. I was 14 when we first met, he was 17. He was an upcoming freshman in college and I was an upcoming sophomore in high school. We only lasted 2 months. We were in two very different parts of our life and it proved to be an issue for both of us. We didn’t talk for a year and a half. I messaged him out of nowhere one day and the rest is history. The first 6 months of our relationship after getting back together was hard. I kept waiting for him to treat me like my ex – for him to yell, scream, control my every move.. but he never did. In the back of my mind I knew it was coming though. 

Despite all of the issues we have had over the last 11 years he’s been my rock. He has helped me become a stronger person, both mentally and emotionally. He’s the reason that I no longer allow people to walk all over me. I don’t let people use me anymore. So for that I am thankful. I can’t thank him enough for standing by my side through all my issues and loving me unconditionally. 

Divorce was brought up two years ago and it was the hardest conversation we’ve ever had. Neither of us were happy in the current conditions of our relationship. We were just kind of there. I went to counseling and he sat in for some of my sessions and together we pushed through that. I never believed in soul mates but seeing how far we have come, all the hurdles that we have jumped, and seeing how much love there still is proves to me that soul mates are real and I indeed married mine. 

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