It has been a while since I have posted an update on how things are going with me, my husband, and life itself so let’s take care of that now!
Most of you all know that I am beginning my last semester in my associates program next week and that I will be graduating in August, but not walking until May since my school only does one graduation commencement yearly. At first I wasn’t going to bother with walking because it wasn’t something I thought was worth it then I got to thinking and realized that walking across that stage will mark a HUGE accomplishment for me and that I need to partake in it. This stems back to my self-esteem issues and the problems that stem from there regarding my self worth and such. -rolls eyes-
This is something that I continue to work on and try my hardest to not allow it to interfere with my day to day decisions but I believe that I will always have issues regarding my self-worth, no matter how many people tell other otherwise. Words that people say seem to stick with me, especially the negative words.. and even though I know that the person who spoke these words to me did so because of issues they have with themselves it doesn’t make things any easier for me to work it out in my head.
I will get to the point of feeling better about something and the my anxiety will come in and be like “Nah, we’re not done with this..” “What if…” etc and it sucks but there’s only so much I can do and tell myself to overcome those moments and I believe anyone with anxiety will understand that.
Life has been pretty good. My marriage is doing pretty good, I won’t say great because it’s not. I’m not going to make it out to be something that it’s not. We have issues, we have disagreements, and then some but at the end of the day there’s not anyone else I would rather spend my life with, period. He’s my best friend, he’s been there for me through all my hurdles in the last (almost) 12 years, and he’s my rock when I’m not strong enough. That’s the bottom line – I’m only being real with y’all.
We are almost done with our first year of homeschooling and things are still going great. We have days where A isn’t as cooperative as others but I’m the same way with my schooling.. some days I just don’t feel like doing shit.. so I try to stay understanding and not get frustrated but at the same time the state does want us to do 180 days of schooling a year, so we have to stick to that.
We were doing 4-day weeks but now we are doing 5-day weeks. I just think that will keep her on a schedule she will need to be on if she decides she ever wants to go back to public school. That, and keeping consistency is key with her so that’s another reason we switched back to 5-day weeks.
I am actually typing this up during my break from lesson planning for next week for her, lol. Doing everything I need to do for her schooling has proven to be more than I do for my college classes but I enjoy it. I love school and coming up with lesson plans for her, knowing what works best for her, has been fun! Math is the only subject we have issues in because it’s her least favorite.
We are coming up on the end of the year and her assessment testing will be soon! I’m not nervous and excited! Nervous because I always get test anxiety but excited when we can put this behind us for a couple months and enjoy summer, even though I will be in school all summer. It will all work out, though.
Well, nap time is over and that means I need to get back to the kids.
Share with me some of your life changes lately and how that’s bettered things for you!