So, it’s been a bit since I’ve sat down and got some content out. Truth is.. I’ve been struggling. A lot.
As most of you know I started classes in August for my psychology program. Normally I take three classes and it is somewhat okay when it comes to balancing everything else in my life. This semester I decided to go big or go home and enrolled in five classes. Not only am I taking five classes but each class is like two classes worth of work each week.
I have been stuck in this constant battle of falling behind in one area while being current in another. My blog, unfortunately, has taken the back seat to school, family, and life. I had originally planned to post once a week to stay consistent with my content. However, I have failed at meeting that goal. I punished myself at first but now I realize that I need to just let it go. I am one person and I can’t expect myself to be able to do the job of 50.
My anxiety has been TERRIBLE lately trying to keep up with everything and I need to allow myself time to breathe. I have been feeling so defeated lately. My anxiety shows it’s face in anger and frustration as well as me closing up. I never want my girls to see the angry and frustrated side of me when it comes to my anxiety, especially since it’s almost always over the SMALLEST of things, but unfortunately it’s been happening lately. I never know which side will come out and since I’m with my girls 97% of the time it’s best for all of us if I allow myself this time to breathe and focus on other things, instead of putting so much pressure on myself.
Obviously my family and school come first before the blog and I’m sure all of you completely understand that. I am not giving up on my blog! I am simply allowing myself to post when I can! I will not be placing any expectations on myself, I will just write when I have the time.
I have some ideas wrote down that I’d still very much like to put out so those will be the ones that I write first. As always, I am open for suggestions on topics to write about! If there’s anything you’d like to see on the blog, just let me know! I’ll leave my social media tags below so you can get in touch with me.
Thank you so much for continuing to read about our chaotic mess and I hope that you will continue to stay through this little hiccup!